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| Baking with the nephew - what the hell is with the gut |
Then I saw it, what I had largely ignoring for the last year. But it was just SO out there. Giant amounts of belly fat. I was never a super model weight and I will never be. Who wants that? I'm sure plenty of women, but not me. Truthfully - when I started to look back at some pictures I realized I had just been hiding it or hiding myself in pictures, which is hard to do - everyone has a freaking phone these days and a bad picture can be taken and uploaded to Facebook lickety split!
I have lost weight before. I had joined Weight Watchers when I was losing weight for my wedding in 2008. I worked hard, but I only changed my eating habits but I still lost about 25 lbs. Everyone said I looked great, looked healthy and I took the compliments and my wedding pictures and had a piece of cake.
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| Me, wedding pic at my lowest weight in likely 8 years |
I felt crummy about it over the holidays and then I realized that paying off debt and generally getting finances under control is REALLY hard. But at this time last year I resolved to do it. I made a decision to not live paycheck to paycheck and put away money and get out from our debt. I did it with a plan, why couldn't I resolve to lose weight, but more importantly live healthier?
I leave the house at 630 in the morning in order to beat traffic for an office job that I sit at a desk all day. I leave work around 430 on a good day and hope that traffic through downtown Boston doesn't suck. Then I get home and I'm wiped out and my husband also has a similar commute and he's wiped out. This leads to a lot of ordering the take out, which leaves us no lunch for the following day, which leads to the drive through for lunch. Also I'm a big sports fan, so is my husband. So it's nights out to watch games and eating giant amounts of food and drinking all the vodka drinks. Also I like to entertain and I like to make tons of food for my friends and family.
I love love love to go out to dinner and have a good meal as much as I like making a big dinner. I love food. Food is delicious. When I go to a new city (mostly for hockey) I make a google map of restaurants I want to check out.
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| If you ever find yourself in Chicago - go to Hot Dougs |
Here's the other issue: I hate exercise. I can give you a ton of excuses about why I don't move my ass. I have asthma. I'm tired. I'm uncoordinated. I never played sports as a kid. I'm self conscious. I suck at all aspects of all of it.
So hopefully this is the start of some real changes, either that or this is just one post where I say I'm going to lose weight and I'm just going to cry about it.
I'm joining Weight Watchers this week. I weighed myself this AM and that number scared the crap out of me. I'm about to go sit with the hubs and make a meal plan right now.
Happy New Year
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